Hey again old friend, been too long since I've written in you hasn't it? Well, a lots happened to me. As I write this I am in a hospital ward, sitting with my new friend Valerie, after getting burnt. Here's how it all happened...

This morning I found out I was a Witch, with the power to turn myself into air. Yes, I said Witch, with actual magical powers. Anyway, I went to see a landlord, after being dumped on a beach by a helpful, but rather angry young drawing called Erin. The landlord gave me an apartment, he's a pervert. I made him a sandwich.

I went to the hallway to look for someone to help me get to a mall, but this complete bitch and her mute boyfriend called Wesley attacked me! She thought I was insulting him, but all I wanted were directions, It's not my fault he can't speak. How was I supposed to know? Wesley had this freaky power, like mine, but he could control wind, he threw me back, and the girl, she made some tiger out of thin air. It was all very scary, but eventually, I managed to find the mall!

After buying some pretty clothes, I found some freaky cool new age shop, the woman inside was so helpful in getting me some beginner supplies, which I took home again. I'll be visiting her again.

I eventually got to Quake, which is a restaurant. There I met Ryo, he's cute and nineteen. He took me to stow laje, that's our place now, it's so romantic. We went back to my apartment for errm. Some hot sex. Which was actually pretty relaxing after the journey I've had, took my mind of things. I regret it a little, but he seems pretty noble. I'm letting him live with me.

I also burnt my apartment while Ryo was gone using some spell I tried. But it worked in the forest when I tried it again. It was to light a candle. In the forest I met Sera, she can make items float and stuff, it's all very cool! She's a good person so it seems, she said we could save innocents together. After meeting a rather unfriendly cottager in the forest, who called me obese! Note to self: lose eight pounds. Sera posed as my girlfriend to get rid of him and then took me to P3, a club.

Sera told me all about her new girlfriend, who she had wished for, called Valerie, who actually showed up at P3. So did Ryo, we all danced a little, but Sera had to go, she took Val. Val however, came back, and me her and Ryo got into some dodgy dealings with a woman called Nicole. Valerie seems to be a Witch too, with the power to manipulate sound.

Anyway, Nicole took us into the forest to save some rabbits who were being sacrificed or something. We cast a truth spell on her and then asked her questions, it turns out she wants powers, any powers. We didn't trust her after that. Ryo decided to be hero, so got himself lost somewhere, whilst Nicole also seemed to just disappear. Ryo is a shapeshifter, he told me, he can change into a bear! I'm thinking that could go either two ways, kinky or painful, but at least he can defend me from the hallway bitch. Me and Val got burnt up by the Demons who could throw fire! That was cool, but like, painful. We tried to escape to the lake but one followed. We were swimming in the lake but one followed us in. I used a spell to disorientate the Demon, but it threw me. When I landed in a different part of the water, I stabbed him with a knife Val gave me, I killed him! My first Demon.

Then we ended up in hospital, and that's where I'm writing you from now. Ryo went to get Val's purse from the forest, I hope he's ok....

xxx

So much has happened I can't even begin to describe to you everything. The other morning, I was attacked by Luke, a whitelighter, angels who are supposed to protect and heal the innocent. He shrunk my friend Sera, thinking she was a demon, I managed to rescue her and unshrink her, after a few exploding potions were sent my way. Eventually I unshrunk her, all was well.

Ryo and I are a bit iffy at the moment, the sex, the sex is great, but is that all it is? He's so sweet and lovely usually, so kind to me when we're out. But, you see, after I stabbed the demon Moony who raped Sera, and felt slightly traumatised, he seemed to just leave me to go to the magic shop. Perhaps I'm being paranoid? I might leave him. This cute guy Tobey came onto me, he's my age, well spoken, really sweet, seems nice.

So anyway, diary, getting back on track. I saved Sera, and eventually met up with these very powerful sister witches, known as the charmed ones, there are four, well, two now. That's where the story takes a turn. Azura, the psychic, was dating, well, she was in love with, head over heels, with Paige. I know this because I felt it. Paige and Prue were killed by the source and she used her powers on me to give me some of her pain and memories upon the loss of Paige. It hurt, a lot. Still does, but I'm slowly putting it to the back of my mind. At least I know what love feels like now, but not sure If I want to fall in love with anyone around here, if they die...

Me and Ryo spent some time in the park and the lake again. Josie was there for some of it, he has this talent for making me feel better again, even with just a hug, which is good of him. He turned into a bear, he's so amazingly cute and fuzzy, he took me for a ride on his back around the forest, wouldn't mind snuggling up with him, he's like one big blanket, and he has the most adorable eyes. He's all innocent looking as a bear too. All of this happened before the stabbing. I don't know if I can be mad at him, there's something so young about him but at the same time, re-assuring and older.

About the stabbing, Moony asked me to make her bleed, so I did, she asked for it and she's evil, she rapes people, and is just, evil. I had reservations stabbing her, it felt wrong. I'm supposed to protect the innocent, I'm not a killer. She called me a killer. I'm not.

I'm getting the grips with my power, I'm getting better at it, it's amazing really, a real rush. It's odd being the air, I wish you could feel it too, to see what it's like. I'm hoping one day I will be good enough to avoid a lot of attacks, I can protect people better that way.

Wesley is annoying me no end, and that whole band of bitchy school girls, some of which are guys. They're hot, but, they're so cruel. Especially Veronica. However, Wesley seems to attack me more than she does, and is a little crazy. I'm concidering doing a spell to make him speak, although, I think I'd rather see him as a mute. Yes. Anyway, I don't know if I want to see Ryo at the moment.

Just feeling a little, lost.

Until next time diary. x

Made up a little with Wesley last night, I guess. As much as someone can make up with someone who can't speak. I can't remember what I did too well, you see. I kind of got drunk. Well, I say kind of, I mean, I did, a lot. It was fun though, I think. Let me tell you how it all started.

Well, in an attempt to avoid Ryo, I was round Nicks, I was trying to sleep after I had rescued Azura and Luke from an ice dagger throwing ghost. I heard another scream, and it turns out Tobey is tied to a bondage table having done some crazy SnM love spell. So after rescuing him, he kissed me on the cheek which was sweet, but he may well be quite a dirty person, and anyway I'm with Ryo so stop suggesting things! So. I went back to Nicks and tried to sleep, we had been training earlier that day too, and Julie threw an energy ball at us, but she disappeared with a demon. So there I was trying to sleep in Nick's bed, since I made him sleep on the sofa, and he turned a scary movie up and I thought it was another innocent in danger! He laughed and we had a wrestling match, then I got dressed.

Ooo there was an earthquake some time as well, training in the forest.

Back with the story, Julie wanted me to look after Azura as she was contemplating turning evil, so that I did. But, Azura ran off! I had to spy on her as my elemental form, but it took too much strength this time around. I locked Julie's apartment with a spare key and sneaked after Azura to the magic shop. I couldn't find her so I went to scry for her, but Julie blinked in and found Azura herself, and then was mad at me for losing her.

I got upset and drank half a bottle of vodka before dancing at P3. I remember dancing, dancing was fun. Lots of dancing. But Julie was there, and Nick, and suddenly, I woke up in Nick's bed. So yeah, don't know what happened there, but I must have passed out or something. I think I drove home, but I don't have a car, and can't drive.

This morning there is a funeral, for Prue and Paige. I feel like I knew Paige, you know? From Azura's attack. So that's why I'm going there. Pay my respects. Hate funerals, hope everything turns out as expected and there are no surprises.

Toodles!

xxx

It's been a while since I've written in here, and way too much has happened to even begin to write down. But I will condense it as much as possible.

Nick's a fuckwit.

So is 99% of San Francisco.

Everyone thinks I'm always in the wrong.

They always misunderstand my efforts to save people, I mean, I'm doing the best I can, I'm just young, I'm only college aged, and well, of course I'm going to make mistakes. I hate Petunius' high and mighty old man attitude, therefore I'm not using him as any kind of tutor. The only good person to learn from is the wiccan, but I'm basically on my own. Except Sera, she rocks, she's my only true friend here, everyone else is a cunt. Basically. I should stop trying to save people, it really does end badly, every time.

My powers got stolen, then came back, so that's sorted, but stupid 'think I'm so great because I have abs' Nick is such a fucker, seriously. He's like a brick wall, and whenever he's around people like I-Suck-Because-I'm-Old Petunius, all he does is try and act old and suck up to him by agreeing with whatever he says, which is so FUCKING ANNOYING, such an arse licker. I can't believe I was ever stupid enough to like him. As you can tell diary, I am one uberly pissed off teenage witch.

A vampire known as Cora used a minion to take control of me with a potion. She then took my blood and forced me to enchant it to basically make all vampires immune to witches. But, I had no idea I was strong enough to do that. Nevermind. I tried to correct this mistake with a spell, and it's given me a terrible blood lust, but it's made me a lot stronger, which is good, as long as I keep topped up on blood...

Boo hoo! Angst. Angst! The Voice tires of reading crap like this.

You just made my list.

The Voice would like to remind you that it is a disembodied entity, and so cannot be on any sort of "list".

List of enemies:

Dante.
Veronica.
Wesley.
Demonic world.
Nick.
Petunius.
Patience.
The Voice.

If The Voice had a head it would be shaking it in dismay right now.

It's been a long time Diary, as usual. But currently I don't know how to feel about anything. I've had to feel so much that I am just willing myself to go numb. I told Paz I loved him, I do, I really, really mean it. But the thing is, he is also in love with someone else, who is dead now, and he had to endure them dying twice. He got to say goodbye to the past self of this man, and now the man has sent him a letter, pledging his undying love from beyond the grave. I sound bitter, I'm not. I'm just devistated for him, absolutely devistated. I hate seeing people go through terrible things, and I feel useless to help and all I can do is join in.

But then again, some problems cannot just be solved like that. I will need to stand by Paz for as long as it takes, no matter how much it hurts me as well, this whole situation. I love him and well, you stand by people you love, through thick and thin. I just hope we can pull through this, my thoughts go out to everyone.